Rosa 'Bathsheba' & Clematis 'Taiga' 13 July 2024

Today I was thinking of this blog with the title Almost, Somewhat, Not Quite in relation that for the first time in 7 months I sat down to watch TV (MSNBC). It had to be with Rosemary's fave, Rachel Maddow, and a plate of barbecued chicken wings and sipping Rosemary’s favourite Italian blood orange soda she called “the pink stuff’. In a hot Saturday afternoon it is was almost like I was waiting, as I was sitting on the hanging chair, for Rosemary to come down and join me.

The almost became the attempted assassination of Donald Trump.

As I write this my cat Niño is sitting on a bench next to me in my oficina. I have finished scanning Rosemary’s favourite clematis, Clematis ‘Taiga’ with a pale English rose so new when she died that she might not yet have considered it one of her faves. To me the colour resembles the femininity and gentleness of her.

I will be 82 on August 31 and no matter how many distractions I invent for myself I know that I am really waiting for that joint oblivion with Rosemary. No matter what my daughters and friends tell me, my life not shared with Rosemary, is not much of a life.

It is a life that is made to have a somewhat meaning with the company of my Niño and Niña.