Rosemary and Niña after she died  December 2020

 

When my Rosemary died on 9 December 2020 we were waiting for the funeral people to turn up. It was then when I decided that I was compelled to take the most difficult photograph of my life because I was a photographer. I went upstairs. Rosemary was dead on our bed with our female cat Niña on her chest. I told myself that nobody was ever going to see that photograph.

Today 31 January, 2026 I thought that perhaps I should look at the photograph. I went to my Family files and I did not find it. Perhaps it is in our Cats - All our Cats file. It was not there. There were many photographs of Rosemary’s hands once she had died but not the one I was looking for.

When I place my Fuji X-E3 photographs into my files they have a Fuji number. Once I open the photograph, size it and then name it then I can use my search tool to find it. That was the case. I looked for the unnamed files and found that I had taken two photographs. I size and fixed one of them which then matched the image I had seen before I pressed my camera’s shutter.

I have found the photograph and the extra one. Will anybody ever see it besides me?