Niña & Niño 29 September 2025

 

Julio Cortázar & Flanelle

Now when I go anywhere I want to go home. I know that Niño and Niña will be waiting for me. Five years ago before Rosemary died if I went anywhere without her she was the beacon that pulled me to go home. She would have said, “How was your day?” With that gone I have my cats. This morning I thought something about my two cats. If I had only one we would be alone together. Julio Cortázar famously said, “My cat and I are alone. The only difference is that I know and he doesn’t.”

I reject that as I think cats and particularly mine know when they are alone. Because they are two they have each other’s company when I am not at home.

But this thought came to me. If I had only one cat I would be alone with that cat. The moment you have second cat I state categorically that we three are a family and we are not alone together we are pleasant company.

The result of all the above is that I spend a lot of time on my bed with my two cats who stare at me. Niño has lymphatic cancer of the intestines. I give him a human cancer pill every other day. When he stares at me I know what he is communicating, “Alex  don’t die before I do. Who will take care of me and Niña?”

As you can see if you have gotten this far I am becoming a crazy cat lady.