|Camellia sasanqua 'Yuletide' 5 January 2023|
Today is January 5 2023 and I have yet to start writing blogs with regularity. It is not only because of the weather and the holidays. It has something to do with this melancholy and grief that I feel in missing my Rosemary. The two cats stare at me and beckon me to go up to the bedroom to lie with them. I cannot resist Niño’s stare. It is somewhat placid but Niña stares at me in a sorry gloom and I feel sorry for the pair. So I don’t write.
I was alone for Christmas Eve and also for New Year’s Eve. In my past I don’t remember ever having a Christmas Eve alone. For a few New Year’s Eves I was alone with Rosemary. I would call this alone/together. That is not at all in being just alone.
In our first year of being married back in 1968 I would have defined our situation as together/alone. We did not need anybody to share our being together.
In 2019 a year before Rosemary died she was keen on Camellia sasanqua ‘Yuletide’. This was a camellia that bloomed (if you were lucky) a couple of days before Christmas with a bright red flowers.
We purchased one at the GardenWorks in North Vancouver.
In 2022 I told my daughter Hilary to take care of my potted camellia as I had no room for it. She forgot to water it and it died. I was quite upset. Somehow I had to find one in memory of Rosemary. I found two in one gallon pots at Mandeville GardenWorks.
While it did not bloom until the 27th of December I have been looking at the two first flowers every day and postponing snipping it for a scan. Today I gave up. And here it is.
Camellia sasanqua ‘Yuletide’ you are in bloom, I am alive and I miss my Rosemary.