Time & That First Potato Chip
Sunday, September 29, 2019
Insomnia has its positive moments.Without the distractions
of TV, phones, or books and aided by night time one gets to moments of critical
pure reason (yes I Kan).
My Rosemary tells me that I live in the past. I work, as now
in my, oficina surrounded by filing cabinets that contain most of the
photographs that I have taken until perhaps yesterday.
Hell according to Sartre was not being able to ever close
your eyes. Einstein said in his theory of special relativity that time slows
down or speeds up depending on how fast you move relative to something else.
Approaching the speed of light, a person inside a spaceship would age much more
slowly than his twin at home. Under Einstein's theory of general relativity,
gravity can bend time.
I believe that hell and time can be personal and one can manoeuvre
or bend it as one wishes. Hell to me in high school was a boring class before
lunch. Time never ended. Eating that first potato chip is a glorious instant of
time that cannot be brought back by eating more of them.
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Every once in a while, when I stare at my venerable Filipino
Timex while in my tub, I have noticed that randomly the second hand will stop. I
do not believe that the watch is failing mechanically. I think it can stop
simply because free will is not only a human trait. That my Fuji-XE3 will
suddenly want to take double exposures without my command is an example of inanimate
free will.
So last night this insomniac was thinking that today slips
by and instantly becomes the past and the awaiting of a thought represents that
future that soon will be a present that slips into that past.
But that past past, when remembered, becomes a present
reality. If I think of my father hugging me, I am dragging that past memory
into the present and I experience it right now with the persistence that only
memory can accomplish.
With film we have the concept of the latent image. You take
a picture. Your concept (or at the very least if you are any good at it) will
be (safely stored?) in that negative or slide until it is developed. Somehow that latent image
of the past becomes a present reality when it appears in the developer tray of
a darkroom.That developed negative or slide when put into the filing cabinet becomes an instant past.
Is remembering an occurrence of the past a similar example
of latency? When I remember something from my past am I developing it?
We know that a photograph can never really bring us more
than two dimensions. That latent image is in two dimensions. But remembering
the taking of that photograph in my mind brings in not only that third dimension
that is depth but also the smells and sounds of the event.
As I read all the above I know for a fact that my thought
process last night somehow is not stated accurately.
Emily Dickinson famously said, “To travel far, there is no
better ship than a book.”
I can only humbly add that thought is just as good as a
book.