Rosemary and Rosa 'Queen of Sweden' 19 July 2025

It is obvious to me that when I tell people or my daughters that I cannot stop feeling melancholic about my Rosemary and that I indeed want to feel melancholic. Distractions do not work.

What makes it worse is that everything in my Kits home reminds me of her. When I choose a serrated knife to slice a tomato I know that she purchased all our serrated knives. When I make my breakfast tea and place it on my wicker tray for my breakfast in bed I almost want to make her usual cream of wheat with brown sugar.we had breakfast in bed every day for at least 25 years.

When I look at Niño and Niña, and they stare back at me, are they indicating to me that they miss their mistress?

It is the garden where I associate every plant to Rosemary. Today I noticed an-about-to-open English Rose, Rosa ‘Queen of Sweden’. Its centre was a light pink. The combination of the pink and the surrounding white reminded me of Rosemary and her soft body.  

It is difficult to explain that I miss her and I particularly miss our times together in (I will use the euphemism) our marriage bed.