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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Kyla Gardiner - Theatrical Lighting Director

My Mother's Red Shawl - El Rebozo Colorado
Kyla Gardiner - Theatrical Lighting Director





I had a tiny bit of my cervix cut out this morning. It was a preventative procedure to remove pre-cancerous cells. The nurse was very careful to stress that the cells were not cancer. I was a bit sad because I have always been oddly proud of my cervix. I looked forward to the end of a pap smear when the doctor would say, “Looks healthy!” Like when the dental hygienist tells you you’ve been doing a good job flossing, I felt comforted and a bit self-congratulatory. But the last time I had a pap she said, “Looks like high grade dysplasia”, hence the procedure. And I know it’s not directly my fault, but I can’t help but feel as though I should have flossed more.

I can’t think of the red shawl without thinking of mothers, and then my mother and how much I miss her. Particularly on days like today, when I have little bits of my cervix cut off, because that seems like a mom thing. My dad took me to the appointment, which I was very grateful for. And afterwards he asked me if I wanted a coffee, which I did. I didn’t really want to drink the coffee, but I wanted to hold it, and to smell it, and to remember something a barista said to me one rainy morning – that coffee heals the darkness of the pre-dawn.



I have been fantasizing recently of getting away for a bit. In my fantasies I am sitting on a sunny porch gazing across a lake while drinking wine and smoking clove cigarettes like a badass. I am talking to a good friend about a book I just read because I’ve been there long enough to read a whole book. In my fantasy I have a tan and look good in cut-offs, and my friend and I laugh in a worldly way about the sad things. As the evening draws closer it gets a little cold and we grab a blanket or a shawl, it could be the red shawl, to keep us warm. Later, when I am back at home and unpacking things I notice that the shawl smells a little bit like clove cigarettes and reminds me of what a nice time we had.


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